I would urge you to see the truth in your situation, Counselor. That is my advice. It is not for me to say what you should have done. Or not done. I only know that the world in which they are made. You are at a cross in the road and here you think to choose. But there is no choosing. There is only accepting. The choosing was done long ago.
I somehow ended up watching the extended cut, so I got an extra 25 minutes that contained (I'm later informed) even more McCarthyesque philosophising (yay) and an even longer opening sex scene (no thanks).
Synopsis: A lawyer finds himself in far over his head when he attempts to get involved in drug trafficking.